Q: Lately I’ve been confused about God. Is there only one God or several Gods?
John: Despite anything that you’ve learned, despite the conditioning of your upbringing and your experiences, despite any of your reading, despite any of your perceptions, despite anything that you can seem to hold or handle in your self, despite any mind of yours, you either know or you don’t. If you know, believe what you know, adding nothing to it. If you don’t know, then don’t believe anything. Then you are devoid of having something concerning the question, and there is an innocence of heart in your simply not knowing.
If you don’t know, you don’t need to know. If you do know, you need to believe what you know. Love knowing the difference. The issue isn’t God or Gods. The real issue is what of any of that do you actually know the truth of and then to come from that. That makes all confusion in that issue unnecessary.
You need to begin with what you do actually have. You don’t have your confusion. You don’t actually have your beliefs. All that you actually have is what little bit within you really know the truth of. Return to that. In all of your heart, like having nothing else and you’ve returned as awareness to being what knowing is. You have returned to the beginning of oneness. If you develop as awareness from anything other than that, you fool your self.
As awareness, be freed in your heart by what you know the truth of, even if that leaves you without understanding. Have your freedom in what you know the truth of. You can be what you know without having to understand it. Real knowledge precedes all understanding. Real knowledge comes before understanding. Having any understanding without real knowledge isn’t real understanding.
Q: What do you mean by real knowledge?
John: Real knowledge is what tiny little bit you actually know the truth of in your heart. If all that you know at all in your heart is to let your heart open and soften, then that little bit is living Knowledge for you. It’s the knowledge that you live by. It is what you know within.
Even if you lose your mind, that knowledge in your heart doesn’t change. Living knowledge, what little bit you know the truth of in your heart, you are able as awareness to be. If your mind goes crazy, if you should lose your mind, if you should suffer dementia, it makes no difference to what you’re knowing in your heart. Your capacity to be what you know is undiminishable.
Have your heart in that and you’ll begin to realize what you know in your heart. If all that you know the truth of in your heart is a tiny little bit, it isn’t “just enough.” That tiny little bit is everything. You don’t need more. If you come from that, if you come from that tiny tiny little bit, you will realize more.
Whether God is or isn’t, whether God is one or many…you mustn’t believe anything unless you know. If you believe something that you don’t actually know the truth of, you deceive yourself. Even if your belief just happens to be true, but you’re not knowing the truth of it, you deceive yourself.
Whatever you know the truth of, whether that is almost nothing at all or whether it’s much, it makes no difference. You do need to believe only and all of what you know, nothing less and nothing more. Then you’re home.
Listen to John de Ruiter Podcast 38 – The Tiny Little Bit of Truth in Your Heart or visit the John de Ruiter YouTube Channel.