Q: I seem to have lost faith in a higher power and also a faith in myself. Can you help me with that?
John: Instead of looking for a bigger power, power in yourself or a higher power, begin with the power that has the greatest reach in you. It isn’t found in your strength. It isn’t found in your beliefs. It’s found in the midst of your weakness, and not just your weakness but most particularly your weakest weakness.
Within your weakest weakness there isn’t anything that holds you together; there is no relationship to power. There is no kind of holding, holding together or even a longing. There isn’t any kind of looking. Your weakest weakness within is that when you are quieted, you know in your heart to be the most simple openness, a most fundamental and simple softening. This knowing in your heart – not what you think and feel, not what you’ve been taught, not anything of past experience – is the simplest beingness. As you respond to that knowing, you simply come to rest and it’s from such a sublime, nurturing weakness that you begin to know more.
When you lose faith in a higher power and in your self, it’s because the way that you, awareness, are moving in your seeking, your looking and your trying, isn’t of the same depth and quality of movement as that of your own being. As soon as it is the same as that of your own being, you’re home. You’re home in a tiny little bit of what you really are.
At that level of tiniest realization within, you’re not relating in your life in the accustomed way that isn’t working for you and doesn’t answer you. You’re relating within that tiniest little bit in the way that answers you in what you really are. It is you, awareness, at rest in pure you, unadorned by familiarity, unadorned by your efforts, unadorned by all of your looking and trying.
The first movement from within that tiny, tiny little bit within of complete restedness is love, not a strong experience of love, not an emotional love, but a pure touch of love. If you’re looking for more than that you’ll overlook it. If you’re looking for something big you won’t see where it actually is, in the little.
Q: Thank you.