Q: I have a hard time relaxing. Lately, we’ve been living in a combat zone near the Gaza strip and we have a lot of bombing days. Recently there was bombing in the night, with rockets falling from both sides. That night I tried to relax and also asked for your help. After some hours I suddenly felt clarity, as if I was leaving my body. I could see it from above. I could see the neighbourhood and the fighting from both sides. When bombing begins I’m usually so involved in knowing where to run, calculating where bombs will fall, how much time I have, where the nearest shelter is … but something changed last time. Would you speak to that?
John: You became settled deeper within. You went into a deeper level which gave you access to a much higher level of seeing. So you came into a natural perspective that wasn’t based on your experience of your self and your body.
You would go through the same thing if you died. If a rocket landed on your body, in that moment you would be out of your body and you would clearly see everything that’s taking place. In all of your seeing, you would be so at home. You wouldn’t see anything wrong with what happened to your body. Only the deeper and the higher remain.
The middle in between is gone, and anything not integrated in your self is gone with it, so there’s no longer the capacity for concern in your self. There’s no longer the possibility of being at odds with the deep. All there is, is you at one with your being and everything you’ve ever known, and from there you get to see the rest of it. You see the more.
That’s what you get to be by deep, deep, subtle choice while you live, while you’re living in a bombing zone, while you’re living in a self that’s imperfect and full of lack; a self that isn’t all like your being, yet.
Your being – you as a being – gets to live in a bombing zone, and you get to be the door for that, the door for your being to come into all of your self and your life, and to have everything that’s yours.
Q: Can you explain that more?
John: Through your openness, you, as a being, get to live in a bombing zone. For a being it isn’t worrisome. It isn’t a fearful thing. For a being, it is full of inner beingness to be in any kind of zone, and you are the door for your being to come through into your self, into your life, and to have it all.
Your being gets to recycle your self and everything that’s yours, enabling your being to have form in your self and your life.