A Poetic Fragment: Pregnant with a Deeper Level

WHEN: May 18, 2015 Evening Meeting

Q: For me to have the new code of a relaxed awareness, I need to encompass more.

John: Then love not from yesterday.

Q: What I’m looking for, would that be by awareness alone, without the use of my mind?

John: What you’re looking for is awareness moving by a different body, a body of yours that’s deeper than the one you’re used to. The movement of that body isn’t confined to the body you’re used to.

Q: I shared with you a dream I had of being pregnant. I know the quality of that body in experiencing it in the pregnancy of that dream. Since that dream I’m in-filled by the beauty of that body.

John: In your dream, you wanted so badly to deliver. Instead of being pregnant, you wanted to deliver. You deliver by moving as what you are pregnant with. Move by a different body, a deeper body of yours. That’s what you’re pregnant with. You’re pregnant with the knowledge, the direct knowledge of a deeper level, a deeper level of you, and also with the substance of that level.

Q: A few days after we talked about that dream, I had one more dream in which I experienced that kind of movement. The moment I use that body, I have it.

John: As you use it, your past no longer confines you. Your body and your self don’t limit you. This deeper body moves by different laws.

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