What is My Life’s Purpose?
From the September 22, 2014 evening informal meeting with John de Ruiter in Copenhagen, Denmark
Q: How do I learn and live my life’s purpose?
John: By first so deeply not needing a life purpose. You’re burdened with wanting to have purpose; it blinds you of any authentic purpose. When you’re trying to have it, you can’t see it. When want and need looks for purpose, all it finds is want and need. It finds lack. First you need to come to complete rest in what has, in you, no lack whatsoever. So there isn’t even the thought or the feeling of a need for a purpose. Then you can see without the use of your past. Then you can see like how you used to see when you were really little, where you didn’t have an understanding of a sense of purpose, but how you were within, and how you moved, was golden.
You can’t find your real purpose in any kind of reflection that you see in this world. That sense of purpose that you’d be looking for in such a reflection puts you into a performance mode in your self. It makes you performance-oriented, which shows you how much you don’t have; it shows you your lack. Your real purpose cannot be found outside of you being what you really are and what you first are within. It’s going to originate, it’s going to come back to you being at home in your heart, not conditioned by any surface having or not-having.
As you come back into being completely at home in your heart, without being dependent on the present condition of your self to come into some kind of sense of purpose, when you’re returned, as awareness, to being what you really are, then you’re able to manifest what that is in the midst of your self. You’re able to manifest your being in your self and in your life. That’s an inward purpose that isn’t dependent on you even understanding such a purpose. As you return to your heart and to what you really are within that’s deeper than any kind of conditioned sense of your self, you begin to fulfill a deep, profound, inward purpose, and that is you coming from within, moving outwardly, not conditioned by any sense of lack.
It’s the kind of purpose that no occurrence in your life, nothing that happens to your life, your body, your mind, your self, there’s no kind of trauma that interferes. With this most deeply realized purpose, then everything that comes your way feeds what you really are manifesting in form within even in the worst of circumstances. Everything helps you, in what you really are, to come from your innermost outwards.